Do you avoid doing things for leisure/pleasure?

[Envylope]

I find that I often avoid doing things due to my brain feeling like they have no purpose. To be clear, I know rationally that there is purpose to be found in doing leisure activities or doing nothing at all. Doing nothing can help you gain some insight to yourself.

I do not claim to be permanently doing things only for a tangible benefit, but often times when I try to get my mind to do something for the fun of it, I lack the capability to do it. I won't be able to read, since I could be writing instead. I won't be able to play games, since I could be writing instead. I won't type up a new thread like this one, since I could be writing instead.

I waste more time thinking I could be writing instead than writing or doing any leisure activity. I do tend to write 1500 or more words a day, but a lot of the rest of the day that isn't consumed by chores or anything is thinking about doing things while not doing them. But then, I realize the irony that there isn't a purpose in thinking about doing something fun and wasting time on that.

 

[L1aei]

I find that I often avoid doing things due to my brain feeling like they have no purpose. To be clear, I know rationally that there is purpose to be found in doing leisure activities or doing nothing at all. Doing nothing can help you gain some insight to yourself.

I do not claim to be permanently doing things only for a tangible benefit, but often times when I try to get my mind to do something for the fun of it, I lack the capability to do it. I won't be able to read, since I could be writing instead. I won't be able to play games, since I could be writing instead. I won't type up a new thread like this one, since I could be writing instead.

I waste more time thinking I could be writing instead than writing or doing any leisure activity. I do tend to write 1500 or more words a day, but a lot of the rest of the day that isn't consumed by chores or anything is thinking about doing things while not doing them. But then, I realize the irony that there isn't a purpose in thinking about doing something fun and wasting time on that.

You're not alone being bored.

 

[Prince_Azmiran_Myrian]

You need some well done pats while you are writing.

 

[SirContro]

Nah. Fun is fun.

 

[Envylope]

You need some well done pats while you are writing.

I exist in a constant state of FOMO when I am not writing. If I'd do one thing, I'd miss out on another thing. Yet if I think about doing either and end up doing neither, I miss out on both. But also, I know that doing nothing is good too sometimes. It's like trying to min max life in the worst way.

So yeah, I deserve some writing pats.

 

[pangmida]

Do you have ADHD perchance

 

[Envylope]

Do you have ADHD perchance

Autism

 

[Eldoria]

You write every day... don't you experience creative burnout?

That annoying feeling that makes me reluctant to touch a pen (or keyboard) even though the story outline is right in front of my eyes (or in my mind).

Seriously, my brain needs a break too... a little relaxation is fine.

 

[Envylope]

You write every day... don't you experience creative burnout?

I experience it to some degree, I am sure. Though, ironically, some of the better things I've written were in periods of burnout. Sometimes the fact that I forced it made me come up with something interesting to break down a wall.

 

[Hans.Trondheim]

I find that I often avoid doing things due to my brain feeling like they have no purpose. To be clear, I know rationally that there is purpose to be found in doing leisure activities or doing nothing at all. Doing nothing can help you gain some insight to yourself.

I do not claim to be permanently doing things only for a tangible benefit, but often times when I try to get my mind to do something for the fun of it, I lack the capability to do it. I won't be able to read, since I could be writing instead. I won't be able to play games, since I could be writing instead. I won't type up a new thread like this one, since I could be writing instead.

I waste more time thinking I could be writing instead than writing or doing any leisure activity. I do tend to write 1500 or more words a day, but a lot of the rest of the day that isn't consumed by chores or anything is thinking about doing things while not doing them. But then, I realize the irony that there isn't a purpose in thinking about doing something fun and wasting time on that.

I do leisurely things mainly to refresh my mind. Any more than that, and it will stress me more becausr I get nothing done.

 

[WeissBlatt]

I do the opposite, I mostly avoid using my free time for things that aren't pleasure. Not like I have much free time these days...

 

[Corty]

I wish I had this issue

 

[Nevafrost]

Doing nothing can help you gain some insight to yourself.

So, I'm not overthinking. I'm just gaining some insight to myself, my family, my friends, the random cat I saw on the street, my animal-like classmates and basically the whole world around me.

I find that I often avoid doing things due to my brain feeling like they have no purpose. To be clear, I know rationally that there is purpose to be found in doing leisure activities or doing nothing at all. Doing nothing can help you gain some insight to yourself.

I do not claim to be permanently doing things only for a tangible benefit, but often times when I try to get my mind to do something for the fun of it, I lack the capability to do it. I won't be able to read, since I could be writing instead. I won't be able to play games, since I could be writing instead. I won't type up a new thread like this one, since I could be writing instead.

I waste more time thinking I could be writing instead than writing or doing any leisure activity. I do tend to write 1500 or more words a day, but a lot of the rest of the day that isn't consumed by chores or anything is thinking about doing things while not doing them. But then, I realize the irony that there isn't a purpose in thinking about doing something fun and wasting time on that.

And another thing is, I kinda relate to what you said. I have a LOT to do during my exams. Like, I would paint, I would read that book, I would crochet and stuff. But when my vacation arrives, I'm completely lost. I dunno what to do anymore. (I'm currently in this phase)

 

[AliceMoonvale]

Autism

Same, autism + inattentive adhd. I struggle constantly.
My browsers always have dozens of tabs open because I keep switching between different things, my attention span is short.
I hardly finish reading or watching things.

I barely play games anymore because I see it as a waste of time. I could be working on more productive things, like doing the massive amount of editing I need for my backlog of story chapters, my side hustle selling things, even cleaning, anything.

But then at the same time, depression often makes me not want to do anything at all, productive or not.
Anxiety makes me second-guess and worry about everything I'm doing or not doing.

It's so tiring. lmao

 

[Envylope]

I wish I had this issue

Trust me. You do not. Imagine that your mind is this engine that makes you do things like this all day without rest. I tell people this, and they think I am just exaggerating or something, but if you spend any amount of time talking to me, you will find that I do this for everything. Of course, I am sure that you know since I do talk to you, but this is a never ending river rapids of thought spaghetti.

Same, autism + inattentive adhd. I struggle constantly.
My browsers always have dozens of tabs open because I keep switching between different things, my attention span is short.
I hardly finish reading or watching things.

I barely play games anymore because I see it as a waste of time. I could be working on more productive things, like doing the massive amount of editing I need for my backlog of story chapters, my side hustle selling things, even cleaning, anything.

But then at the same time, depression often makes me not want to do anything at all, productive or not.
Anxiety makes me second-guess and worry about everything I'm doing or not doing.

It's so tiring. lmao

Yes, it's tiring. Generally, I don't make topics like this because I also have another thought at the same time that's like, "what are you making this thread for? People will attribute malice to your attempt to just explain something."

 

[AliceMoonvale]

Nothing wrong with posting about a certified relatable ™ moment.

 

[Envylope]

Nothing wrong with posting about a certified relatable ™ moment.

Logically, I know that is the case, but I will still think about it over and over again. It's not uncommon for me to start writing a thread and delete all of it in the next moment.

 

[Fang_Yuan]

We all follow that ontological principle. The river flows to the path of the least resistance. Desire and fear, meaning or no-meaning, purpose or no purpose, thought or no thought, circumstances or events, choice or no choice, fate or destiny, cause and effect— everything in existence both internally and externally are all taken account into the calculation of what counts as the path of least resistance. Motion occurs where resistance is minimal. But resistance here isn't talking about the localized human concept of effort. Someone may expend immense effort, struggle, or apparently act “against” what seems easier to a human eye—but in the ontological sense, that action is the path of least resistance for that exact configuration of the system at that time. Every variable—history, capacity, environment, internal state, past experiences—is already part of the calculation that defines the path. It's an ontology talking about the direction of motion itself taking the path with least resistance.

It requires immense self-knowledge and selfhonesty to know what's your “path of least resistance” though.

 

[AliceMoonvale]

Logically, I know that is the case, but I will still think about it over and over again. It's not uncommon for me to start writing a thread and delete all of it in the next moment.

That's me with half the comments I try to make on here.
I'll think I'm being smart or funny, but then delete it saying no, no. YOU'RE CRINGE.

 

[Envylope]

That's me with half the comments I try to make on here.
I'll think I'm being smart or funny, but then delete it saying no, no. YOU'RE CRINGE.

I want to say to reject the version of you that cringes, but that would be hypocritical. I think we all exist in between restraint and hedonism. We would like to restrain ourselves or follow desires other times, but I guess it depends on how often you do that. Too much restraint is bad, and too much hedonism is bad.

Even this thread could have just been a blog post on my blog, but I know that nobody reads that shit. Therefore, some percentage of me---no matter how small---is doing this for attention.

We all follow that ontological principle. The river flows to the path of the least resistance. Desire and fear, meaning or no-meaning, purpose or no purpose, thought or no thought, circumstances or events, choice or no choice, fate or destiny, cause and effect— everything in existence both internally and externally are all taken account into the calculation of what counts as the path of least resistance. Motion occurs where resistance is minimal. But resistance here isn't talking about the localized human concept of effort. Someone may expend immense effort, struggle, or apparently act “against” what seems easier to a human eye—but in the ontological sense, that action is the path of least resistance for that exact configuration of the system at that time. Every variable—history, capacity, environment, internal state, past experiences—is already part of the calculation that defines the path. It's an ontology talking about the direction of motion itself taking the path with least resistance.

It requires immense self-knowledge and selfhonesty to know what's your “path of least resistance” though.

I try not to get into the philosophical reasons of being. That being said, I do watch such content sometimes. But even if I can philosophically say why do this or that, it doesn't actually change the outcome. I will either do it or not do it.