Had the same problem and what got me through was this:
Witches/pagans are dumbasses who are also opportunistic. I don't remember where I first saw it but, the first building block of "true" magic (it'll trickle down to fantasy magic bear with me) is outright believing in something. In the...
Stuff in spoilers seem to get obliterated in transition. I haven't done much authors not but did a poll with basicallly the same. Let me find the site again and I'll get back to you.
If you don't hear from me on Friday, I'm dead. As my last will and testament: burn everything. You get nothing. Kick an orphan in my name. That is all.
Getting chopped up at the doctors Thursday.